I’m bad about letting things go. I know that for a fact. I’m even worse at letting go of things that I perceive as personal. Which means that if you treat me badly, insult me, or hurt my feelings to the point that I cut off contact with you…….. Yeah, not gonna let it go.

I’m going to go out on a limb here and say that’s probably because I take a lot from people I consider friends. I’m not going to cut contact with you because you forget to call once in a while, or you don’t email me back. I even let casual insults slide. Believe it or not, I’m a really nice person.  For the most part.

But……. oh you knew there was a ‘but’ coming up, didn’t you, gentle reader? BUT!! If  you continually insult me, my lifestyle, my kitchen appliances, my habits, and my hobbies, I’m going to have issues.  If I offer you my friendship, no strings attached and after painstaking review of said friendship, I detect a distinct pattern of it being ME that’s doing all the giving, I’m going to have issues. Eventually, I’ll say something to you about this. I’ll give you a chance to explain/apologize/whatever.

Doesn’t mean I’ll let it go, though. It’ll still hurt me and I’ll still get angry that once again, I let someone treat me like crap. Especially when you claim to have ‘valid reasons’ for treating me like I’m less than human and refuse to respond directly to what I say.

I’m not sure that I’ll ever learn to let things like this go. Maybe if I did, I wouldn’t be me and that might just be bigger loss than letting go of things that hurt me.